mhmm... woke up from a deep sleep because it was too hot. :) feeling proud of myself because as of now, i have finished my holiday homework. except i haven't touched econs or the plath essay question yet. okay, finished my holiday homework that's due to be handed up in the first week at least. so proud of myself! especially since i finished the stupid history S question that after i read the essay, felt it made no sense but somehow it just feels good that it's done.

so not looking forward to going back to school. it'll be another 10 weeks before holidays and after that would be common tests! nonononono. mhmm... somehow time seems to pass so fast. but when i'm suffering at the gym it doesn't. okay, just kidding. i'm not suffering there and it's a choice cos i can't run for peanuts.

stomach pain. appetite failing. maybe it's the thought of school, either that i've been eating too much multi-grain and wholemeal stuff that a little bit goes a long way. think that's true, cos multi grain is so filling... try it, it's really good, there's like nuts and seeds in it. chewy chewy. it's going to be my early dinner today with ham and cheese that's toasted followed by soya bean milk. eating healthy. churning in my gut. waited too long, ms-stupid-girl who should have followed what her horoscope said. grr, annoyance at self.

going to NUS again later for NUSS lecture by PM lee. quite excited by that prospect of listening to him talk without hearing it through the television. must wear nice clothes, office wear... look older than 17! oh man, somehow i just can't imagine writing that.

i need to get passion for school.

perhaps passion for life would be easier.

it's really not that hard when life isn't shitty but it's a whole different story when life attempts to screw you over. i doubt you'll find any happiness when that happens. sounds so bitter.

this post is disjointed. and again, i wonder who reads this.

blog again for myself after i come back from the lecture but i think that'll be about 10 plus.